Back on track...wait...is there a track?

"If you don't do what's best for your body, you're the one who comes up on the short end."

Alrighty, friends.

Here's the deal. Most of you know that I started a "weight loss" diet/thing last year. Well here I am, beginning of 2010, the exact same as 2009. Why? My Fault. Did you read that right? yes. It's MY FAULT. No more blaming anyone but myself. If I want to be healthy and get to a healthy weight it's all on me. No one else.

So here I am...I'm going to be completely transparent with you starting with some confessions.

1. I hate exercising. This is going to be the biggest challenge for me, I believe. When I have free time, the last thing I want to do is go to a gym and sweat. I'd rather spend it painting, talking to friends...or...the dreaded S word...shopping! But none the less, I must, must, must start. I'm going to join a gym and make a point to get there at the very least 3 times a week for cardio exercising. Not only that, but I'm going to try to be a more faithful blogger and write out my exercise schedules for the week on here. My thinking is that if I post it, maybe I'll be more likely to follow through with it.

2. I love cooking. This is not a bad thing. The bad thing is that I'm not cooking the right things. Solution? I've bought a healthy cooking cookbook. If i learn what my body needs as opposed to what it wants and cook by that, I'm convinced it'll make a difference.

3. I need help! I need you. I need people to hold me accountable. Comment on my page if I'm not updating you on how it's going. Ask me if I've made it to the gym. and if i make excuses...call me out on it. It's easy for me to make excuses. Heck. I've made them for years now. My health is going to have to become a priority. I'd rather choose to make it one before it gets the best of me and then I have no choice.

4. This is so much more than a physical issue. What most people don't understand about overweight/obese/fat/whatever you want to call us people is the emotional/spiritual side of it. It's easy to stand from the outside looking in and call us fat and lazy and tell us to just eat less and take a walk. It's not easy to sit down and understand the emotional stress of it all. Ask any overweight person you know and if they answer truthfully, they DO care what you think of them. The world's opinion of us is one of the hardest things to look past. I'm making it a point to work on this completely. Not just losing weight but working on how I view myself and looking past what others think of me.

Everyone who knows me knows this isn't a "oh my word, I need to lose 20 pounds." type of thing. The fact of the matter is that it's much more than that. and I realize that it may take a while but sticking with it will be key.

I can go ahead and warn you that there will be blogs where I'm flat out over it. I give you permission to tell me to get out of my pity party and push through.

I have a lot to look forward to. I've set goals and rewards for those goals (i.e. new outfits, girls nights etc). I'm excited to see results. Once I've got it all sorted out, I'll post them in another post.

I've got a lot to look forward to this year and a lot of things that will benefit from losing this weight...
Connor is turning 2 in November...gotta keep up with him!
My best friend is getting married in December/January...gotta look good in a bridesmaid dress!
Summer...need i say anything more than swimsuit? bleh.
and sooo much more! :)

Anyways, I believe that all for today...going to do some more WiiFit! :) and make a call or two about joining the gym!

Thanks for reading, friends.

Love. Love. Love.
Katie

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Eat this, not that.

So, I bought a book last night at SuperTarget (my new love).

It's called "Eat This, not That" and It's all about making better choices about what you put into your body. I bought it because in the last few weeks I've been really interested in exactly what is put into the food we eat....like the chemicals companies put in, the genetically modified foods, the hidden ingredients (like beetles in yoplait strawberry yogurt. yes. beetles. look it up! ) Anyways...SUCH a good investment if you're interested in that type of stuff.


Like I said, it's a very interesting read. There's a section that talks about FDA regulations for foods and you'll be surprised at the stuff that is allowed in our food. It's shocking and will make you want to but everything organic....ha! If only I had the money/time for that!

Regardless, I'm trying to start a healthier lifestyle. Starting first and foremost about being educated about the food I put into my body.

That's all for today :) Thought I'd share my new favorite book!

Love. Love. Love.
Katie

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My ever-so-predictable New Years Post :)

We have 24 hours left in 2009! How odd! This sure has been a year of change for me.

Recap:
Transfer back home from Union to MTSU and start classes in January. Leave the church I grew up in to do some "soul searching", so to speak. Find happiness in unexpected places. Start going to Kairos in June and my spiritual life is flipped, shaken, and broken (in a good way) by Pastor Mike. Start a job at Portrait Innovations. Not. For. Me. Quit after a month, start working at GG Cafe. Love it! Still working there. Fall Semester of 3 studio classes and 1 lecture class. crazy, busy, but loved it. Saw WICKED in September. fell in love with the musical. 21st birthday in November, Nephews first birthday shortly after (still head over heals in love with him) Semester ends, Christmas, Best friend engaged on Christmas eve annnndddd now. Here I am with 24 hours left in this year. Crazy how time flies.

It's almost scary how fast time goes by. So my main new years resolution this year?

Slow down!

In every area of life. I often get too caught up in life and everything going on that I either rush through and don't enjoy it, make a bad decision or completely miss the important things all together. This year I want to enjoy life. Take a night to myself and visit an art gallery. Go out of my way to meet new people that I wouldn't normally meet. Take time to make art for the sake of making art instead of just for school. Seek God and fall back in love with Him. Find out a way that works for me to live a healthier life. Cook dinner for my family. Explore the town I live in. Spend a day with my sweet nephew and take it all in. Take a spur of the moment trip to the lakehouse. Get involved in a charitable cause that I believe in.

So, friends, I give you full permission...if you find me caught up in the hussle and bussle of it all, grab me by the shoulders and say "Katie, Sloooowww down!".

I hope that this New Year brings everything you want it to.

Love. Love. Love.
Katie

ps...a few picture updates of the nephew :) It's been a while!

Connor loves to show off his muscles :) Look at that face! haha!

Connor is ALL over the place now! He loved the Christmas tree! He'd walk up and just look at it...then he'd squat down and look under it at the presents. Seriously...look at that face! :) Cutest one year old out there!

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Merry Christms!

Merry Christmas, Everyone!

Have a listen to my favorite Christmas song!



Now get off of here and celebrate the birth of Jesus!

Love. Love. Love.
Katie

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Biggest Fear...

I've come to realize one of, if not the, biggest fear in my life currently.

Being alone.

Lately, I'm scared to death of being alone...not having someone to experience the "big moments" in life with. It seems like so many big things are happening right now and I'm just to the point where I want nothing more than to share these moments with someone. Two good friends got engaged tonight, and I know some others are in the very near future. It's hard not to think of the fact that that's not happening soon for me. I feel...behind?


So frustrating. What if my biggest fear comes true?
I don't think I can handle it.

This isnt meant to be a "oh my gah...i hate being single" drama post. It's just me...and how I've felt lately. I know God created us to find our other half....but do we all? and if we don't how do we become happy without them?

Just my thoughts tonight.

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Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy (day before) Thanksgiving, Everyone!

I hope everyone has a marvelous Thanksgiving around the ones they love, and that you get up early enough to get all the wonderful Black Friday shopping done! :)

This year, I'm thankful for...

• My Family- They are wonderful...always putting up with me and encouraging me to be a better person. I could not have asked for a better family. I love them with all of my heart.

• My Nephew- (I know...he's family...but he deserves his own spot :) He makes me world go around and I can't believe just how much I love this sweet little boy. His smile and sweet giggle just makes my day.
  

• My Best Friend- Lizzie is the best friend a girl could ask for. Always putting up with me and always there to listen when things just aren't going right. She's more like a sister to me than a friend and I love her to death.
  

• My Job- In the last few weeks, I've realize how lucky I am to have my job. It works perfectly with my school schedule, and I absolutely love the people I work with. So many people don't like where they work or don't get along with coworkers, but I'm lucky enough to say neither of those are true.
  

• My Education- Transferring to MTSU was not the easiest thing for me, but I've come to realize I'm very thankful for it. The art and graphic design program here are wonderful and I've learned so much just the last two semesters I've been here.
  

• Kairos- This college ministry at Brentwood Baptist has been my saving grace since coming back home. Pastor Mike always shoots straight with us and you can see his passion for God's word in every word he says. It's kept me on track spiritually and given me a solid group of Christian friends I can depend on.
  

Again, Happy Thanksgiving, everyone.
Thank you for reading my blog and putting up with the highs and lows of me :)

Love. Love. Love.

Katie

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Beyond Words

Have you ever been so broken hearted or hurt that you were beyond even talking about it? Been so...so saddened that it was impossible to even talk to the person closest to you about it?

I'm there.

My heart hurts and I can't think of one word to be able to explain why.

I'm beyond people always saying "I'm here for you" or "Just pray about it."

What happens when you can't even think of the words to talk to God about it? When all you can do is sigh, shrugs your shoulders, cry and hope He understands.


People can be so cruel...and the worst is when you find something out then start questioning everything and everyone. I don't know how to trust. That may be my biggest weakness. I question the motives of everyone...convince myself that no one can be trusted.


I don't know what to do anymore and I'm tired of being so happy all the time.

I just need to get away. I need to know that He is listening....I mean, I know He is....but it'd be nice to have some feedback.

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